These last days have been pretty crummy. I have been keeping track of my cooking, taking photos, and even have three started posts in my draft box. But.

For one thing, I’m sick. The whole fam damily has been down with a wicked cold. Hopefully short lived. The 3YO’s only lasted one day, I’m on day 2, and still pretty dumpy looking. At least today my brain feels normal. Y’know how you get that sickie-fog? Even the simplest tasks seem ridiculous? Let alone taking care of two kidlets. I’m sorry to say that the 3YO watched more movies yesterday than ever yet in her history. It was all I could do to weather the fussy bored Babe.

But, thing two, there’s a fatal flaw in this whole Calamitous Kitchen plan.

I can see the problem. As a mama of two bitties, I just don’t have the time to write obsessive volumes about cooking and cook. Not to mention clean the house, which always balances on the edge, and has of late fallen straight into the abyss.

On Day 2, I spent far too much time blabbering on and on about Day 1. The house fell into total wreckage mode. I was a Not Nice Mama. One of the half finished posts in my draft box is entitled Mama Rage, and was spawned from Day 2.

I am a much better parent when I can set aside any big ideas of my own (small ideas are okay). I have been thinking how sad it is that I will doubtlessly spend far more years later coveting babies, than years now with my actual babies. I must not take for granted this magical time, this gift of watching two new souls take root and blossom.

Still. I have always been someone with tenaciously big ideas. I have always had a very clear, even too clear picture of what I want. You know by now my critical balance.

Hmmm, not sure how to get this done, because I really like this little Calamitous Kitchen  project. And I want to give you a week of consecutive days. Not that you need to read every day, but that I want the food to flow in a day after day way, like real life.

Fortunately, not every day is a bust-out manicpanic of kitchen pandemonium! Most days are much more tame, though I’m sure I could still go on for hours theorizing.

I think I will try to keep it a little more clean, spare. I think I’d better try for just a list of what we cooked/ate, with maybe one focused topic/day to expound on.

And although I will keep track of a week of consecutive days, I’m gonna throw ’em atcha curve ball style, just whenever I get time.

Look out.

5 thoughts on “Well…

  1. good insights, good plan. sorry bout the rage and the icks (and vids. sigh. did i tell you bout when the kid was three and i was working nights and sometimes yelled at her to go watch the same vid for the multiplth time because please god i needed to sleep? sigh.)

    have i mentioned lately how cool i think you are?

    hope you get better soon. x

  2. These are the exact reasons why I have been so sluggish in posting recently, why many thoughts about post topics have sat untouched in my draft box and emails left unanswered (including yours!) and instead all I can do is snap a picture of craft and say ‘look at this’. Because sometimes there just ain’t time to be ‘doing’ life AND explaining it to oneself/others at the same time. Wise decisions. Looking forward to the curve balls. I’ve loved the posts (but of course… not taking the time to comment!)

  3. CJ, don’t beat ya self up dear. It’s just tooo frikkin easy. YOU didn’t invent the cold and YOU didn’t invent how needy kids are. No one prepared me for this ride, and I doubt you were prepared any better than anyone else. We can’t all be sunshine and frikkin rainbow cakes hun, it’s that simple. Trying still to bite my tongue instead of sayin the ‘f’ word around my 3yr old my self, so no judgement.

    And posting everyday? Are you HIGH?!!! I can’t catch up if you post every day – so STOP EVEN THINKING ABOUT IT!!!!

    Lots of luv,

    your ever-selfish fan….

  4. in terms of tenaciously big ideas – i have had to totally nix these from my realities since having the bear. i don’t know how you do what you do with two! also – sami ta-doos (SmallAssManageableImmediate to-do’s)
    totally saving my life, giving me goals and staying “do-able” all at the same time.
    finally – yer totally an inspiration. hope you know this, even in the midst of feeling crappy, popping in videos and entertaining tenaciously big ideas.

    1. aw, thanks.
      i notice your ta-doos aren’t so small exactly either. i really love the, at least goal of, one adventure/camping trip per month. man has the adventuring ever fallen by the wayside for me and my man. gotta push through!

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